1. |
Intro
04:45
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2. |
The Morning After
04:10
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I awake to a world cold and numb.
Though light is pouring in,
darkness continues to surround me.
I still taste death on my tongue.
I still see her hand reaching out to me, so inviting.
I ask her why she couldn't just take me.
She points at the balls of fur
cradled up against me at the foot of the bed.
She points at the light-soaked tub
containing my reptilic pride and joy.
She points at the arm tightly wrapped around my cool body,
which belongs to the light of my life.
She points at me.
I feel a warm light surround my face.
I am human.
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3. |
Born With A Void
04:02
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Water blinds my vision,
as I try to focus on the ceiling.
Blue, like the sky.
Blue, like your eyes.
I sharply shut my lids and pretend I'm floating
far away from the pain I've caused.
If I can just retreat to the sky forever
and make a home among the clouds,
I won't ever have to say goodbye.
The void inside me is filling up
as the fluid in the tub rises.
I am whole.
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4. |
Haunt Me Forever
04:54
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The ink is bubbling up
and forming new letters - red in color.
They spell out your name.
All the things you couldn't say
appear on the page.
I'm here for you,
though you're already gone.
You'll haunt me forever,
and I'll keep your words close.
Your memory will never be
forgotten.
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This is the end.
My blood turns to ash.
I scream out for help,
but no one's listening.
Will they prefer it
when I'm gone?
How many times must I
cry into swollen ears?
How many times must my
lungs corrode from the weight of my pain?
They nod along, but they aren't listening.
They nod along, but they don't care.
What will it take to make them see
that all my life has become bare?
What will it take to make them see
that the end is near?
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6. |
Dirge For My Former Life
03:04
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Like the snake,
I shed my skin,
revealing beneath it
the glow of what stayed hidden
for all these years.
Always part of me,
but lurking in shadows,
my new life is here.
I will not miss my old skin,
but I will cradle it to my chest
one final time
and lament for my childhood
where I felt so alone.
You are free now,
I assure the dry bundle.
You will find happiness.
I place it down into the earth
and cover it with dirt,
where my old self will fuse
with a blossoming flower
and be reborn.
I am finally whole.
Euphoria is mine.
A python slinking among the tall grass,
knowing who and what I am.
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7. |
They Laugh Like God
03:08
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The cacophony in my mind
is clutching onto my dreams,
leaving me vulnerable and helpless.
Here I fall,
through my laughter.
Though dawn breaks through my window
and illuminates my room,
the darkness from the night before
still sings her tune.
My heart's trembling,
scared of me.
There is hope outside the door.
All I have to do is laugh.
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8. |
Exulansis
03:36
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My bones crack
beneath the weight
of your words.
They penetrate my veins,
my blood running cold.
Everything I said to you
wasn't enough.
You're just like all the rest.
I give up.
What rays once were left
have all gone dark.
There is only silence here now,
and the gentle beating of my heart.
My broken heart.
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9. |
Tu Me Manques
04:38
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I press your letters to my lips
and dream of all you would have said
if you hadn't left us.
Anger rises to my chest, as I imagine
a world where I could still hear your laugh.
Loving you is only sorrow,
a nightmare I can't wake up from.
You haunt my every waking thought.
You rise from the grave each night
as I lie in bed attempting to sleep
to remind me how much I miss a person
I never actually met.
I'd beg you to stay a thousand times.
I'd show you all that could have been.
I'd pull you into the light
and show you it's worth it to live.
I'd show you that you are loved.
Every day, I'd fight for you.
Every night, I'd die for you.
You are the reason for my tears.
The reason for my pain.
I just want you to come back.
That's all I ask.
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10. |
Little Space Cat
03:22
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Lillian Bubbles,
you are gone but not forgotten.
Though your time on earth is finished,
space has awaited your return.
Thank you for your service,
and all you did for earthlings.
You can rest easy now
knowing your job here is done.
We'll never forget you,
always in our hearts.
That magic little space cat
who saved lives and healed wounds.
I know you're looking down
from your tiny, floating pad.
Your dude will be with you soon,
so in the meantime,
watch over our loves.
You're a good little girl.
Best job, BUB.
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The cuts on my lips
spread open and form
a flower with dry, falling petals.
Exhausted but unable to sleep,
the flower begins to shrivel
and encompasses my lungs
until I collapse,
heart screaming out for the end.
To my dismay, I awake
to find my bones turning to dust.
My ribs fan out like angel wings,
white and delicate.
From my place against the pavement,
the wind feels like a mourning dove
singing into my ear.
I hear it say,
"You are whole.'
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A blinding light cast
down upon me
splits open my mind
as my dreams become reality.
I float above my body.
I dance upon stars.
The constraints of my mortal prison
are falling apart.
The ground's fading out.
My legs shrivel down.
I'm staring up at the sun
as I begin to drown
inside my own memories.
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13. |
Outro
02:09
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