1. |
Sludge
06:22
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Just one word can send me down back into this Hell.
Back to where violations were ignored by his dark eyes.
He took my spirit.
He took my life.
I fell apart from every word he spoke to me -
fingers curled tightly around my arm.
I’m screaming but no one’s listening.
I’m crying but no one cares.
My world is hollow.
My life is bare.
Here, lying naked on the bed,
my finger starts to bleed out.
No matter what happens, I’m still alive.
I have to remember that I’m still alive.
I can’t let him take that from me, too.
He may have won the battle,
but he won’t win the war.
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2. |
Poison
04:18
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His words like poison,
consuming me.
Migraine won’t leave.
My tears,
they bleed.
Broken body.
His to keep.
Discard it as he needs.
Help me.
I’d like to drink the poison.
Turn my guts to pure blood.
His stare like venom.
He gazes down at me.
Challenges me to leave.
He knows I won’t.
I’d like to drink the poison.
Turn my guts to pure blood.
His heart like mud.
It fills up with sewage from his gut.
Black blood pours from his eyes.
I hope he dies.
I’d like to drink the poison.
Turn my guts to pure blood.
His soul like a hole.
Never seems to show.
I wait for the day where Hell proves it’s there.
As if he ever cared.
I’d like to drink the poison.
Turn my guts to pure blood.
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3. |
Leeches
03:55
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Leeches feast upon my brittle bones.
No blood left in this body.
You’ve stolen it all from me.
Here in the dark I still see your smile haunting me.
I wish that it would leave.
You’re a blood-sucker,
and you’ve drained me completely.
What more do you want?
I can’t get up.
I’m just a corpse.
Here on the floor.
Hope it pleases you.
It’d be the first thing to do so.
Now with these teeth clenched in me,
your lips widen,
as my blood drains and falls down the side of your mouth.
Maybe I’ll become a vampire and kill you.
Revenge would be sweet.
But now my eyes shut.
And you walk away from me.
Forever.
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4. |
Ashes
03:12
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Eyes snap open,
I’m alive.
In my rebirth,
control is mine.
Light pools down
on my face.
As morning comes,
I’m aflame.
Skin on fire,
but I feel no pain.
Wings spread open,
talons sharp.
I’m a phoenix.
I’m in control.
Skins peels back.
Reveals that my blood is black.
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5. |
Gehenna
04:24
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I hope I haunt you like you haunt me.
Every night I see you in my dreams,
manipulating me still like you love to do.
Here these wounds won’t close.
Lying in gloom,
a rose in my hand.
The beauty won’t last.
The thorn pricks my finger.
Reminds me of the nail in the wall.
The only thing that made me feel real
when I was a ghost.
Here these wounds won’t close.
The blood always spilling down my finger.
Forever.
I can’t even look at dragonflies
without seeing your cold eyes.
Your cold, dead eyes.
They’re always staring at me.
I just want to sleep.
Just one night without you in my dreams.
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6. |
Rope
03:37
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Learned to tie a rope.
Tied myself up nice.
Nice and tight.
Nice and tight.
Impossible to pull myself free.
I’m ready to face my ghost.
I’m ready to make him choke.
So many times I’ve cried over him.
Now it’s his turn to know
what torture feels like from the other side.
Open the door with the rope clutched tightly in my hand.
I’m ready for revenge.
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7. |
Knife
04:25
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Now his eyes look like mine did
the night he pinned me to the bed.
Knife is bloody.
Eyes are dead.
He will be, too.
Now his tongue falls from his mouth
as he tries to scream out.
Knife is bloody.
Eyes are dead.
He will be, too.
I push in the knife.
I hope he dies.
Here with no one.
And I hope he cries.
Forever.
Knife is bloody.
Eyes are dead.
He will be, too.
I drink his blood,
smile wide.
It tastes like sludge.
Black like night.
Knife is bloody.
Eyes are dead.
He will be, too.
I push in the knife.
I pull out the knife.
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8. |
Tongue
03:14
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Holding his tongue in my palms.
He can’t manipulate me anymore.
His time is done.
His soul is mine.
I feel no remorse.
I’m glad he’s gone for good.
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9. |
Memento
05:19
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I step out into the sunlight,
holding his tongue still.
Shoving it into my pocket.
The warmth on my face feels like a new beginning.
I’m free.
I’m finally free.
I’m glad he’s dead.
No apologies.
Blood covers my face.
People stare at me.
But I don’t care.
Can’t they see?
I’m happy.
I’m free.
No dark nights,
no sleepless nights
left for me.
This agony will die with him.
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